In This Life

I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me.

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See You Again

It’s very excited to see you tonight. We have been separated for a year. Though the distances of our cities isn’t very long or we have enough time to travel, we are just like losing contact. I miss you every day. For some reasons, I thought it’s not proper to call you frequently. I was completely wrong. Because just now you told me that you expected the phone calls all the time. I’m sad for not understanding you. I’m sorry for that. But I’m happy that you still need me in your mind.

For me, there are two different pieces of news tonight. Good news is that you come to the city which I’m currently in. We are so lucky! And bad news is that you got married and held the wedding several days ago. That day came at last. I’m just not willing to hear of it.

You know what? When you appeared in front of me suddenly, I didn’t recognize you. I couldn’t believe it’s true even when you hugged me softly. I didn’t believe that you would get to me right here, right now. Holding your shoulders, touching your hair and feeling your breath, I found it’s really you. The body and your smile are still familiar to me. I was not dreaming.

Thanks to the microblog service. Just a comment after I posted a sentence that told I was drinking in a bar, we got in touch again. We went together to that bar for many times. You must remember that. After you left more than a year ago, I still went there at times. But without you, I just drowned my sorrows in wine. I always want to tell you that I miss you.

Finally, tonight, you run to me. We seated by the river and talked out of our minds. We know we still care about each other. We can still feel the other’s heart. When you talked, I just gazed at your eyes and touched your hair. I could feel your feelings.

I was clear that you was not mine and you had to return. So I was sober that I didn’t hold you in my arms and stopped you leaving. When you left for the hotel, you turned around to see me again. I knew you didn’t want to leave me, either. But for tomorrow, we had to control ourselves. I knew you wished I could hold your hand and hugged you tightly. Sorry. We both knew I couldn’t.

For tomorrow and the days after tomorrow, I only wish you happiness full of your life. And I took a picture of the place where we met. It will be my beautiful memory.


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It’s the first one that the title is completely made up of numbers. Yes, it’s a date. And it represent Singles’ Day.

I don’t know the exact history of this day. Generally, it came from the Internet and was created by Chinese. And young people, especially university students, celebrate the day every year. They will have a party with others. Or they will sing and dance in the bar. And of course, the merchants are involved with the celebration. They will try everything they can imagine to promote the day. Inevitably, there are many commercial elements within the day.

So, it’s just a day. It’s created and driven by people. People want to have some fun. And it must come with some reasons. The day is a good reason. On this day, young men and women needn’t be shy. You can feel free to communicate with each other. And you can even tell someone about your love.

If the other also likes you, he or she can take it seriously and then accept your feelings. If not, people can treat it as a joke. No one would hurt. If you expect some relationship, it’s a good way to begin.

There’s are some activities held tonight around me. I’m still hesitating. Will I go? And which of them will I join?

I’m very aware that if I want something to happen, I must be active. The first step will be important. I have been used to being alone. I’m considering when to change the status. It’s difficult to make this determination. I’m not determined. I need some courage.

I prefer waiting to searching. I’m always imagining I would meet the right person some day. Till now, it seems impossible.  The right person would send her as a gift to you. It all depends on your efforts.

Girls are also scarce resources. You have to be a brave pursuer.

Never think about the might-be break-up.

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Just Your Wedding

Just like what the movie usually shows, I received the invitation and came to your wedding. But I didn’t destroy it.

I didn’t shout out. I didn’t get drunk, either. I was controlling myself with my best. I didn’t want to be a clown . I’m always a gentleman, right?

You told someone not to let me speak out bad words. It’s unnecessary. You should know I could control the situation. I came here for greetings.

Or I wouldn’t promise to come.

So there were two things I did on the wedding, clapping my hands and taking photos. I had been neutral.

Honestly, the moment you both kissed each other under the shinning lights, my heart beat heavily. I was suffering. However, there wasn’t any change on my face. I was still smiling.

What on earth was I doing?

It looked like a drama which we played directly.

I wished people there could give both of you a happy wedding. That moment would be a good memory in your mind. I’m sure of it.

So, what could I say? Best wishes for you two.

I won’t hate that gentleman who lives with you during your whole lifetime. I just envy him. He is very lucky.

We all know there could only be one lucky man.

You know I always care a lot about you. Though I never said it out of my mouth. It’s about feelings. I can feel you have felt it. But communications between us get fewer and fewer as time goes by. I have to accept it.

I can’t own someone. But I can bless her.

Maybe I should forget it. I was not the other leading role.

Just let it go, quietly flying away with air and dust. Girls like saying it to other boys when they refuse.

It’s just your wedding. Not OURS.

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Not to Be Shy

Don’t be shy when you fall in love with a girl. That’s what I get from my friend’s experience.

If you have feelings for some girl, you should let her know. The best way is you tell her your mind directly. It’s not wise to drop a hint.

Don’t push her to guess your mind. It may lead both of you to a wrong way. You can’t ensure she knows what you’re thinking exactly.

If she doesn’t show obvious dislike, you can be confident to chase after her. Lovely words and beautiful flowers will be useful.

The girl will be happy if you say “I love you”. She hopes she can hear your saying love out.

So you just need to shout loudly.

I’m not a shy guy and I will let the world know I LOVE YOU.


Why I Am Alone

People always ask me why I’m alone when they’re told that I don’t have a girlfriend.

I tell them that I don’t want. I don’t want to be in a relationship. But the more important reason is I can’t forget former persons I really care in my mind.

Every phase I connected myself to a girl. And out of question, every girl refused or showed no interest.

Now I really don’t know which girl I can connect to again. I’ve no idea about how to begin a relationship.

Then after the beginning, how to keep it always?