There is such a boy of a kind in every girl’s life. He doesn’t belong to love. He isn’t her boyfriend, either.
However, there must be a place for him within the nearest distance from herself.
She will be bursting to show it to him when she sees some pretty things. She will be bursting to copy it from her MP3 to him when she listens a beautiful song. She will be bursting to buy two and one for him when she finds nice notebooks, though he doesn’t like pink strawberries. She will send SMS to him firstly when she is about to cry. She will go to contact him firstly when she is quarrelling with her boyfriend.
Although it’s unknown that when he will disappear from her life to be a prince of another girl and that girl will be princess owing to him, every girl exhausts herself to enjoy, consume and empty him and everything he takes greedily during the days when he still stays within the nearest distance from herself.
Every girl all becomes gentle, nice and considerate in the body of such a boy.
Though a perfect girl herself after that has nothing to do with this boy yet.
But such feelings are always something that exceeds love.
Half an hour ago, I found some fascinating words when I searched music. It’s someone’s signature article in a forum. When I read those words, I mean Chinese characters, I suddenly found something in my eyes. I was moved by them. Those words were about ambiguity, confidant and something like that.
Although it was written about what a boy is for a girl, I think it can be applied commonly. Each boy/girl maybe owns a girl/boy like that. And of course, so do I. So on glimpsing through those sentences, I sympathized with the contents. It seems it’s writing my situation.
I have published its original version in my another space which is written in Chinese. Now I translate it to English and put it up above. Those sentences are not the most beautiful, but really meaningful.
And before posting it here, I meant to send it to someone. But unfortunately, she seems not to be in touch tonight.
Sometimes, I hate the world somehow as God plays tricks on us. Two have feelings for each other and even they were ever in a relationship, they can’t live together eventually. Even if they still love each other. That’s what God does to us, if God really exists. We are fortune’s fool, aren’t we?
It’s difficult to explain how these ones come. They don’t belong to friends or lovers. But these special relationships do exist.And many of us were or are trapped in such a relationship. We don’t know whether it’s sweet or not. We just can’t escape from such a trap. Even when we have known its unhappy ending, we are still enjoying it. Funny.
We know we can’t be able to retain it one day. We also know we will let it go one day. However, we are not willing to break away from it. We all need it, don’t we?