In This Life

I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me.



Offer, where is my offer?

This is a question I want to know urgently these days. And I also want to know who can give me an offer. It’s clearly that an offer is the most valuable thing I want now. I urge it.

These days, I have been working hard to look for someone or an employee that can give me an offer. I really tried. And believe me I will continue to try. I hope more companies could give me more opportunities. And I also work hard to grasp opportunities. But now, for the time being, the problem is it seems there are not many companies who are willing to help me. They even don’t give me a chance.

Why? I have been thinking about it. And I also asked many people so as to find the answer. I need to know the reasons. I don’t know what employees think in their mind. Every time when I want to get the answer, I always stare at my resume. I try to find something in it.

Is there something wrong or not very proper in my resume? Or do I make mistakes in the resume? Unfortunately, I found no direct mistakes. But how did those HR managers exclude me? It must contain some obvious factors.

"Yes," I said to myself. After many times’ checking and thinking, I think I do find something.

Firstly, it’s on account of my name. You mustn’t believe that most Chinese people don’t know my given name. Even many teachers who teach Chinese don’t know my name. They don’t know the pronunciation and meaning of the characters within my name. Then they don’t know how to type it in the computer. So, even if the HR staff think I’m qualified and want to give me a chance, I still receive no interview or aptitude test notice. Because they can’t speak it out on the phone or type it out in the computer.

Secondly, the relationship of my university and major gives people an optical illusion. They think my university shouldn’t own a department like mine. They tell themselves according to what they see from the name of my university. Maybe they regard my university as a famous and excellent university. But they don’t have the same opinion when treating my major. In their eyes, if my department really existed, it would be a little bit bad. Actually, the fact is that my department really exists in my university. And it’s good. It’s just young if judged by the year when it was founded and will certainly have a promising future. It makes me somewhat angry. I just want to tell them, if you judge something only by its name, you will find you are wrong at last. You don’t know what my university is and who I am. But you are unknown about your wrong judgement.

Thirdly, HR staff can’t search out many shining points in my resume. I didn’t get any scholarship at university. I’m not the Party member. I didn’t have a high level in Students’ Union. I didn’t publish papers. I didn’t have an internship in a big company or organization. I didn’t take part in many social activities. But this is what I am. I am what I am. I am one of a kind.

I still believe I’m not a man that contributes nothing on the earth. I can do and will something for the employee if employed. And I also have some strong points which others don’t have. I’m "useful". I’m not a giant and most of us not. But I can be a talent of what I do.

Now I’m sitting in front of the computer. I’m trying to find some useful employment information. Browsing the webpages about other people’s interview experience, I couldn’t help thinking about my offer again. I wish I could see my offer soon. It’d better be tomorrow. 




Who Will Win the Series

Who will win the series? Lakers and Spurs, which team will get the NBA Western Conference Champion? Many Lakers fans believe their team will win at last. So do Spurs fans. But for me, it’s hard to answer this question. Although Lakers led the series 2-0 before today’s game.

I’m not a Lakers fan or Spurs fan. If Lakers win, it will be the victory of Kobe. And if Spurs do, it will belong to Duncan, I think.

And today, we must pay attention to a very important point that Spurs picked up crucial home win in Game 3.

The winners of any playoff game always give the impression that they are, indeed, unbeatable. Just as the losers look like they have no chance of ever winning. Honestly, however, virtually every contest in the money season is totally existential. It means there’s no real carryover from game to game.  So it was that the Spurs responder to being blown out in last game. They have changed tone of series vs. Lakers.

They did it in time, didn’t they?

Today, Ginobili whom Spurs coach Gregg Popovich said such a competitor scored 30 points to lead the Spurs to a 103-84 victory over the Lakers in Game 3 of the Western Conference finals. "He puts so much on his shoulders, he fights through a lot of things. He’s got a lot of confidence in what he can do," Popovich said.

Ginobili, the league’s top sixth man hit five of the Spurs’ 10 3-pointers and got to the rim a few times to prevent the defending champions from falling into an 0-3 hole. No NBA team has ever overcome this difficulty.

Out of question, Ginobili was the key factor which helped the Spurs win today. He showed no trace of his lingering ankle injury, running, cutting, leaping and shooting with the kind of ferocious grace that we have grown used to seeing from him.

Kobe still played like Kobe, but the Lakers couldn’t handle the Spurs in this game.

Now the Lakers lead the series 2-1. Game 4 is Wednesday in San Antonio.

I don’t care which team will win the conference champion. For the two teams and two super stars, I have too complicated feelings. I love Kobe Bryant. I also love Tim Duncan. So I can’t choose which one I love more easily. But I don’t agree what Bruce Bowen has been doing on the floor. It’s not consistent with the meaning of basketball. But you can’t forbid it according to the rules. That’s the point.

And what they need most is the NBA World Champion. They have got some champions. They still urge more.





China Mourns Quake Dead

From yesterday, May 19th, when you browse Chinese websites, you’ll find something changed — the font color of webpages has been changed to black and white.

Yes, that’s one of what China is doing to mourn for quake victims.

On May 18th, China announced three-day mourning for quake victims, suspension for torch relay. The State Council, the Cabinet, on Sunday ordered a nationwide display of respect for the dead. The Olympic torch relay will also be suspended from Monday to Wednesday, the Olympic organizing committee said. China’s diplomatic missions abroad were also ordered to observe the order, and condolence books are to be opened in the Foreign Ministry and Chinese embassies and consulates around the world.

The public are asked to stand in silence for three minutes from 2:28 p.m. on Monday, while automobiles, trains, and ships would sound their air sirens. Financial markets also suspended trading for three minutes.

Flags have been kept at half-mast and all public amusements are suspended for three days from Monday as China began an official mourning period for victims of the May 12 earthquake.

From leaders to down, all Chinese are mourning for quake victims.

Yesterday afternoon, several minutes before 2:28 came, I was being in a bus in Beisihuan Xilu of Beijing. When it was 2:28 sharp, all vehicles stopped and sounded their sirens. Passers-by also stopped and stood in silence. And from the video screen on the bus, I saw thousands of people shouting "Go, Go, China!" "Brave and strong, China!" and "Brave and Strong, Wenchuan!” "Hang on, Sichuan!"

At that time, colors which belonged to China were just black and white. What Chinese people felt was only sadness. People all over the China and overseas Chinese prayed for the quake dead.

China is carrying through its first-ever national mourning for quake victims.

We pray for people who died in the deadly quake. And we hope the survivors could walk out of shadow of the tragedy soon.






Quake Deaths

The death toll from the 7.8-magnitude earthquake in southwest China’s Sichuan Province rose to 22069 nationwide as of 2:00 p.m. Friday, while 168669 people were injured.

Altogether 21577 people were killed in Sichuan, close to 2000 up from Thursday, and 159006 were injured.

In Sichuan’s neighboring regions, 364 were killed in Gansu, 109 in Shaanxi, 15 in Chongqing, 2 in Henan, one in Yunnan, and one in Hubei.

The earthquake destroyed or heavily damaged 436000 properties leading to 4.8 million homeless, according to official figures.

And the TV news said there were estimated to be totally more than 50000 deaths.

The rescue work is still keeping on. The death toll is still rising. We have no idea that how many people could survive.

"Saving lives is still our top priority, as long as hope of survival still exists," Premier Wen Jiabao said. He have tried everything he could to help his country and people. He has done his best.

Rescuers are still trying their best to find and save people. But hope is now running out of many trapped under tons of debris.

The earthquake and some other factors caused these deaths, even if many of them were kids. Let’s pray for those who died from this disaster. And hope the injured people would get recovered soon.


Earthquake Measuring 7.8 Richter Scale Hits Southwest China

A major earthquake measuring 7.8 on the Richter scale jolted Wenchuan County, Sichuan Province at 2:28 p.m. Monday. A previous figure of 7.6 was revised by the State Seismological Bureau.

The epicenter of the quake was located 31.0 degrees north latitude and 103.4 degrees east longitude, the bureau said.

With a population of 111800, Wenchuan lies in the southeast part of the Tibetan-Qiang Autonomous Prefecture of Aba, 146 km to the northwest of Chengdu, provincial capital of Sichuan Province.

The ground shook in Beijing, which is 1528 km from the epicenter. An earthquake measuring 3.9 on the Richter scale jolted Tongzhou District, Beijing at 2:35 p.m. Monday. Earthquake was felt in Beijing. And according to the reports, it was also felt in many other provinces of China.

In many cities, people rushed out of homes and offices and took to the streets.

Still no advanced news on deaths and injures. Pray for people who live in the epicenter.

A geophysicist with the U.S. Geological Survey said, "it was a very dangerous earthquake".

Premier Wen Jiabao has been on his way to the area to direct the rescue work.

Hope everything will be fine soon.


Excellent, and Also Alone

He is excellent, absolutely. And, of course, he is also alone. Who can be the one of that kind?

That is Tracy McGrady the one who falls down in the first-round series of NBA playoffs again.

Today, T-Mac did everything he could. I can feel that he was being exhausted on the floor. He tried to save the Rockets. He scored 40 points for the Rockets.He scored eight of Houston’s first 10 points. He finished 13-for-26. He got 28 points in the first half while his highest game score in the past 5 games is 29. He tried to carry the Rockets. But few of his teammates climbed aboard.

T-Mac pushed the Rockets through the end of the second quarter, going on a 9-0 run and scoring 13 straight for Houston while cutting a 17-point lead to 58-54 at halftime. But the Rockets could get nothing going in the third quarter, scoring only 11 points while going 4-for-22 from the floor and looking a lot like the Jazz had when Houston staved off elimination Wednesday at home. T-Mac had just one point in this quarter.

On the contrary, Deron Williams scored 13 of his 25 points in this decisive quarter. The Jazz didn’t want to put themselves in that situation again and snuffed the Rockets’ hopes by opening the third quarter with a 20-5 run, which Williams capped with seven straight points. He made back-to-back 3-pointers and prompted Houston to call a timeout.

T-Mac came out firing in the fourth quarter. But even he, the two-times scoring champion couldn’t save the Rockets. Because nobody helped him. He was just fighting alone. He couldn’t beat the Jazz by himself. He fell to 0-7 in playoff series. That is what we have seen, a cruel fact.

At the moment, out of question, he is the poorest man in the world. He must be so sad today. He felt what the pain was if helpless. He saw the reality he faced again. What a pity!

Some say T-Mac is weak. Maybe. But today, no one can say that. We could see clearly that he was doing everything he could to save his team and his honour. Didn’t you see that he was fighting by himself and nobody could stand up to help him? What a poor man! He exhausted himself to score points as many as possible. He run after the Jazz with his strong scoring. He fired fiercely and continuously. That’s what he has done.

Nevertheless, his teammates couldn’t fight together with him. They couldn’t score. Meanwhile, they couldn’t prevent the Jazz scoring. They were just spectators on the floor. Facing the Jazz’s offense, they could do nothing. Working with these men, how could you desire T-Mac to get wins?

So what could T-Mac do except saying "I will be back"?

I believe he will be back next season. But I’m not sure whether he will get more when he fights for his dream again. I hope he would get something really meaningful one day. Because I still believe he is excellent. Although he might be alone again.

Good luck, Tracy.

We know you were hurt.


May Day Golden Week ‘Gone’ Forever

Today is Labor Day, i.e., May Day. I didn’t have a plan of travelling. I planned to stay at my apartment.

Last night I asked some of my friends whether they had planned to travel out. They said no. I believe that there are quite a number of people staying at home just like us. But months ago, you couldn’t foresee this situation would happen.

I can feel that this year’s May Day is not as hot as the past several years’. It’s not the focus any more. Why? Many people must associate it to the Olympic Games, Tibetan issue and even the train crash. Yes, of course, these events are what people focus on these days. But there is a more important reason which is also more direct resulting in it. That is, the May Day Golden Week is gone forever.

During the past seven years, China had three Golden Weeks for the Spring Festival, Labor Day and National Day holidays. And then, from this year, one of the three Golden Week holidays is abolished and several traditional Chinese festivals added to the holiday list.

According to this new holiday system, for Labor Day, people can only have a one-day holiday. Even if we use holiday shift here, people will have three days holiday — Labor Day, this Friday and Saturday. The week-long Labor Day has been "historical". From now on, we will have two Golden Weeks.

As is known to all, the Golden Weeks were introduced in September 1999 to boost domestic consumption. It really contributed a lot to GDP. Markedly, it generated so much in tourism revenues. Now the authorities abolished one of them. What do you think about it?

And are you satisfied with the current holiday system?

By the way, today, I tried but could hardly find any news report about May Day in some China’s leading media. It wouldn’t happen in the past.

Maybe news for the Olympic Games means everything to them.