In This Life

I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me.

I’m Not Ready

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  Eventually, several months passed. Everyone is making preparations for the Graduate Candidate Test. So am I.  Every day I review books in the dormitory or classroom. When people ask me what’s going on with my study, I always tell them everything is in progress. I don’t want them to worry about me. I try to make them believe everything is under control and I have done my best.

  But the point is I’m not ready. I seriously mean it!

  Now I regret for my fooling around in the past three years. I don’t know these three years’ importance till now. But it’s too late. The golden days have past away. Only regret remains.

  After entering the university, I did nothing valuable. No scholarships, no articles, no subjects, no prizes, even no gfs. Shortly, I have nothing. So sometimes I laughed at myself. And I’m ashamed of my mediocrity.

  However, these virtual things have been beyond my caring. At present what I care about most is the following Graduate Candidate Test. I need to get a good score for further education. But I’m not sure for that.

  Competing with students from all over the country is inevitable. It must be cruel. I try to make myself not think about the outcome. I don’t want to be much tenser.

  In fact I’m a bit of nervous.

  What should I do next? I’m not ready for it.

  And tomorrow when the sun rises, I will do the same thing that I ever did again.Thinking

 

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Author: jleecute

a native Chinese man who wants to know the world better -------- We can cure physical diseases with medicine, but the only cure for loneliness, despair, and hopeless is love. There are many in the world who are dying for a piece of bread, but there are many more dying for a little love.

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